Monday, December 11, 2006
wth. apptmnt tmr. so screwed. i'm so outta control. its not abt wt anymore, it hasnt been for quite a while. i just hate being so imperfect. i reaaally dislike flaws, they scare me. sick of it. living up to expectations. there is so much pressure to be something i feel i'll never be. without self control, i'm really nothing.
people please pray, for a miracle to happen tmr. or no africa. sigh :(
what lynn says really is true. we're worrying abt someth that for others wld be too good to be true. erggh. so much easier said than done, really. hate it hate it hate it. being forced to do sth i dun wanna do. just put a pump in, why dont they?
