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Thursday, December 14, 2006

The voices inside
hunt me in the night
those voices I hear
are causing my fear
The voices in my head
are driving me mad
and though I do what I can
I can't get rid of them

off to africa soon! (: yayeness! so psyched up baaaaaby. kinda scared abt what my parents will make me do, those who knw, yeaaaah. may come back looking... aiyiyi. ok k, shall 'enjoy myelf& not think so much'. wise words from anita (: okie dokie. i'm off to interact with animals (:

wth. apptmnt tmr. so screwed. i'm so outta control. its not abt wt anymore, it hasnt been for quite a while. i just hate being so imperfect. i reaaally dislike flaws, they scare me. sick of it. living up to expectations. there is so much pressure to be something i feel i'll never be. without self control, i'm really nothing.

people please pray, for a miracle to happen tmr. or no africa. sigh :(

what lynn says really is true. we're worrying abt someth that for others wld be too good to be true. erggh. so much easier said than done, really. hate it hate it hate it. being forced to do sth i dun wanna do. just put a pump in, why dont they?

guess who's back, back again. nickaye's back, tell a friend. guess who's back, guess who's back, guess who's back.. teehee (: i'm blogging after a gazillion yrs!

so anw went for some buffet yesterday with nick, leo n my mum's cg. ordered ala carte though. they were like competing to see who cld eat more andddddd. NICK WON. he's one hella a lucky guy, super high metabolism. pfft :( went to catch deck the halls after tht where nick ate AGN! teeehee. some cliche ending xmas show where everyone is suppose to go awwwww n tear after watching. haha. was pretty ok la. the boobs on one of the mums is like kinda big, bet the other two were staring ;D teehee.

nothing much todd, same as everyday. program n stf. god, my life is borrrring. gettin to be a drag going to outram park everyday. hehehe. man, weighing's tmr! immasoscaredithinki'mgonnadie :/ gordo's right before me, hope he does good so DL's in a chrrrpy mood (: hurhur. better pray tonight!




girl, you're being missed more than you knw <3

its been ages since i've blogged. not really in the blogging mood these days. hohums. been really irritated with a certain someone these couple of days.

dont act like your oh so innocent& whatever when you obviously are vying for the attention that you'll get when you get together, (even if it against your MORALS)(which you dont really have anyway). your really a freakin hypocrite. okay, this is damn childishm, but whatever.

was just blog surfing, and its sad, how people can change so fast. it hasnt even been a year. ohwell, who am i to judge anyway.

been noticing and heard some stuff abt a particular person, i'm so glad to be the motivat. for once! :):) been feeling really down these few days, i really miss sec.two.

RAH RAH RAH RAH RAH. THERE'S SO MUCH I WANNA SAY. too long, and i'll be using codenames half the time. i miss you& those 'swim' times. WHY WHY WHY WHY.

The voice inside my head
Tells me it's not bad.
It tells me to keep going,
It'll be worth it in the end.

If what I'm doing isn't wrong,
If my actions are so right.
Why is it I hate myself?
Why do I cry at night?

Keeping it a secret,
Hiding it so well.
Never speaking out,
Afraid to show and tell.

Climbing slowly out,
Only to fall back in.
No one really understands,
They don't know how hard it's been.

Little comments hurt so much,
They hurt more than you know.
You couldn't possibly understand,
I refuse to let it show.

I have a nasty secret,
I can't tell you what I do.
So I'll keep it a secret,
And someday I'll tell you.

SOMEONE SAVE ME.

blogging from the us. keene, new hampshire :):) rocks here. freezing my butt off though. short post.

3 days till thanksgiving/ xmas dinner. cant wait! PAULPAULPAULPAUL (in case your wondering, thats the cute boy in my wallet) haha. and NATENATE (ask if you must) yaye :) missing you guys back at home tons though.

whoops. gotta go. baking angel cookies with cousins! HOHO.

nicolef. 15 plmgss tennis!